Beauty, Anyway

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I let my yard overgrow
After years of grooming
Depressed
Me and the grass
It got bad for us both.

Yet from those snarling weeds and desperate crabgrass and thorny stickers
A bunch of wildflowers grew.
Because I couldn't take care of us,
Something wild, golden, and inevitable ruptured forth.
Beauty, anyway.

Now here's what they won't tell you
What no one will tell you but me:
I've come to worship every golden petal
But I'd choose the other version.
The one where I get out of bed,
Where the grass doesn't lose its mind,
Where both of us are okay,
I'd choose that one every time. 

But I enjoy the flowers anyway.
I will enjoy beauty,
Any way.